The essence of Freedom

Freedom to me is "being independent" -  to be able to live in your own house, to cook and eat for yourself, do what you like, to get what you want and keep you head held high coz you know you can manage life yourself.

These lines might portray me as a selfish crook - not able to relish the joy of living with family, eating together and helping each other amidst all fights and disturbances. But how prepared am I to face reality? What will I do if left alone -  will I able to manage things on my own? Or will I sit dumb and feel terrible and aloof - cry over things? A yes to the last question does not help!!

So what should I do to be strong enough to face the world? Live alone for sometime - a couple of years away from family -  now this may sound so unorthodox and unhappening for some of you out there. But trust me - at the end of all this I will mature as an individual - brave at heart to face all consequences, however tough they might seem!

I will be honestly glad if I get the green signal to live on my own. But I all get is nay-nays from my family when I put forth this issue - hmmm.....does not help really!

So I have made a decision - when I have children, I will ask them to take their chances and be alone after they age - they will get to learn so many things - as they say it is all about personal choices - nothing works better than experiencing things on our own. Come what may - they will be brave enough, mentally, to face it!

Keeping my fingers crossed for my own freedom:)

Confusions!

So to start with - I am 25 and still confused about what I should do - career,future,freedom...hmmm.

I have a Bachelor's degree in I.T. but straight from my heart - that is not my cuppa tea - never been! Good that I decided not to delve into the mazy realms of programming, the software junk et al. I was too late in realizing my dislike for I.T. and I was not able to change my major. No worries - I am still hanging around - alive and kicking!!

What do I like then?? Now that question has a string of answers - writing, reading, singing, painting, surfing, travelling, not to miss thinking - I just love sitting in my room - under the fan and just think, think and think!:)

All these are acceptable - but I am not sure about a long-time career as in a white-collar job...the thought of it drives me crazy. It is just that I am not a person who can just sit and work all the time - that buffs out the creativity in me. It is five years since I did my not-so-worthy Bachelor's and I have got experience in some BPOs - I am still working in one. I am still not happy about the work I do and I have decided that I am not going to stick with BPOs all my life. That leaves me with what to do?

So I think and think and think and finally I presume,not decide, just presume that writing would be the best thing for me. So here I am writing my very first blog - honestly miss the touch of pen and paper - but this works just fine!

There I have taken a step - time will tell and so will I!